The agony that courses through my veins. And blogging.



What’s this? A personal post from the Grim Reader?!

August has been a funny old month. I turned 39 at the start of it and then got sick. I can honestly count the number of days I’ve had off work sick in the past 10 years on both hands, so when I was hit with a sinus infection a few weeks back, I didn’t handle not being able to shake it off quickly very well at all. I’m still stuck with it now, it’s been nearly 3 weeks.

Having the time away from work has allowed me to reflect a lot on life as a blogger. I started this blog in 2015. I made some mistakes early on in my blogging career, mostly pandering to authors and publishers to the point where I believe my integrity started to wilt. When I first started out I had a clear vision of what I wanted to do with the blog. I wanted to give indie publishers and authors a platform for their work to be amplified. To some degree, I believe I have. I’ve had my ups and downs, moments when I felt like throwing in the towel, but then I’d receive a nice DM or an email of thanks from somebody and however timely that may now seem, it allowed me to refocus and get back in the saddle.

It was pretty slow going at first, but particularly during the last 18 months, I have seen things move in a very positive direction with regard to subscriptions and regular visits. I began to incorporate a few album reviews to the site and when the band/label shared the review my hits went through the roof! I recently got a very nice email from an American subscriber, also a metal fan. She came across one of my album reviews on Twitter and visited the blog. She informed me that she has since purchased several books on my recommendation. This warms my cold, black heart, it’s why I started this thing in the first place.

I’m proud of what I’ve achieved however insignificant that may seem to you. For every subscriber or reader that picks up a book or album after reading one of my reviews, I call that a win. I like to think that I’ve never lost sight of my vision and despite some early misjudgments I feel my word is honest, whether you agree with it or not. I’m okay for people to disagree with me, life would be kinda dull if we all liked the same stuff, right?

I pay $130 for my blog every year (I just renewed my subscription), I put in a huge amount of time reading books, writing up reviews, creating GIFs, promoting the blog as well as all the other promotion of other blogs that I do through social media. I’ve never been in this for me. I’m not here to boost my ego, to increase my Instagram following or to generate followers via other social media forms. I only really accept .mobi files for review, I support indie authors and publishers to the point of buying their ebooks from Amazon even though I’ve read and reviewed an early copy. I’m not one of those “Oh, I only accept hardback or paperback.” types. Most indie authors work full-time, some have more than one job and postage can be expensive, especially internationally. Don’t be an asshole, be flexible, ask yourself, do you really want to read the book or is it simply for show on your bookshelf?

Anyway, I rarely do personal blog posts so If you’re still reading this thanks, it’s because of you I’m still around. Take care of yourself and each other. And, most importantly, support your fellow bloggers. There is still plenty to go at for the rest of 2018 so don’t be a stranger…

One last thing, I promise. I want to give a shoutout to some of the fantastic bloggers that have helped me (often unknowingly) on this journey so far.

Kendall Reviews

Tattooed Book Geek

The Scary Reviews

Ink Heist

There are many other blogs, publishers and readers who support my blog, too many to name here so please don’t be upset if you’re not listed. Thanks! Let’s keep reading and rocking!

The Grim Reader. August 2018.




24 Comments Add yours

  1. Tom Adams says:

    Hi Adrian,

    Thanks for that personal update. You’ve certainly put in the man-hours/days/months with your reviews and I have personally bought a number of books as a result of your reviews, most recently, ‘The sea was a hard master’ (that title’s wordage probably isn’t quite right – but you know the one I mean.) By being honest, you have gained respect and a good review by you carries currency. I subscribe to a lot of book blogs, many of which I don’t read due to time pressures or they’re just plain bland, but I always look forward to opening your emails. I hope you’re feeling better soon and able to face those kids at school again!

    Best regards,

    Tom Adams


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    1. Thank you so much, Tom. I truly appreciate the support. It means a great deal to me.


  2. Sorry to hear you’ve had a rough time lately being sick. I think we all have our ups and downs with blogging, and it really is incredible what a difference it can make when someone says or does something nice or thanks you for your hard work. Glad to hear your blog has been picking up lately, and feel better!

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    1. Thanks, I’m working on the feeling better part.


  3. Thanks for the mention.👍📚

    Pleased that your blog is going in the right direction and I would say that you have achieved a lot with your blog.👍

    Blogging definitely has its ups and downs, some due to authors, some to other bloggers and the nonsense in the community but when something good/positive happens it makes the sh#t you occasionally go through not so bad.

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  4. Keep on kicking ass, Adrian. You’re sharing an awesome passion and we’re (readers, writers, muso’s) lucky to have you. 🙂

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  5. You do a great job and a fantastic service to readers. Keep on it, Adrian!

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  6. Keep up the Great work! Always glad to see your new post! This blogging thing is a frustrating thing sometimes. I just post what I like and don’t worry about the rest. If someone else likes it as well even the better.

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  7. Of course I read this. I’ve been with you from the start, so I am a little bit sad to not be listed as a main supporter (but I’ll forgive you). It’s so well-written and thoughtful and from the heart. You are beyond a doubt a stalwart of the horror community and so needed. The help you’ve supplied authors (and me) over the years is beyond a doubt too much for anyone to ever re-pay. I’m sorry you’ve so ill, but I’m glad it’s allowed you to take the time to rest and think too. We all need that. I’ll always support you my friend, no matter where or what or how. MUAH!

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  8. S.E. Casey says:

    Hope you feel better, Adrian. And Thanks! I’m definitely grateful to you and anyone who helps out indie or low-frequency authors/music. Also, as a reader, your blog functions as a helpful resource to mine the hidden gems in the back-alleys and basement corners of horror lit!

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  9. Sorry to hear that you’re down with the sickness, dude. This was a good read. I, like many others enjoy your reviews and my tbr list is pretty much all of your recommendations, so thanks!!
    Keep up the brutal work, I hope one day I’ll see my work reviewed by ya (unless it’s shit, ha).
    Keep it brutal, kvlt, and kickin ass!!!!

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  10. Lilyn George says:

    Glad you are feeling better. Sickness can really lay a person out. Glad things are moving forward for you.

    There are more reasons than just wanting a book for your bookshelf for accepting paperback, though. Doesn’t always mean we are being greedy or hardened towards the authors we are trying to support.

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    1. I didn’t use the word “greedy”. I’ve spoken to a lot of indie authors regarding review copies and numerous times they have told me that some blogs aren’t flexible when it comes to the format they want for review. I’ve been told of bloggers approaching authors for a review copy but not accepting anything other than a hard copy. Surely if you want to read a book so much and you approached them then you shouldn’t be so demanding with what format you receive the book in? I’d ask if you really want to read it or simply add it to the collection because it will look nice on an Instagram post.

      If reviewers only accept physical copies then that’s fine. I’ve no problem at all. But don’t seek a book out and then get upset and dismiss it because you didn’t get the format you wanted. Be flexible, especially if YOU approached them. I know that postage from the U.S. to here in Australia is minimum $15 and that’s before you figure in the books cost. It’s a huge cost to the author/publisher sending books out so be flexible is all I ask.


      1. For Sinister, or any other author I work with, to send a book to the UK is $30 bucks. Sometimes we send a few books and it’s $60. It’s really hard in indie to re-coup that cost. That’s only postage cost. It really adds up and the sales don’t make up for it. It’s sad. As a reviewer, I prefer print because after working on PC so much I get headaches and my eyes hurt, but if an author can’t provide it, and they are asking me, I kindly tell them why. If it’s a book I would like to read I check it out from the library or maybe buy it. I do like when some take the print and do photos as it is good for PR buzz, but for indie or authors without a lot of money, it’s just not possible. I think there is just a break down for people in how much indie horror publisher or authors make and how badly they want to keep afloat but still want to get the word out about the book. Every little penny counts.

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  11. Israel Finn says:

    Get better! We need you!

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  12. Thank you, you are all warriors of the written word and people I’m happy to call friends. I really appreciate the support.


  13. Kev Harrison says:

    So glad you didn’t jack it in, man! One of the first voices I look to when considering what to scoop up next for my TBR pile in the dark side of the kindle store.
    As a late 30s man myself, I can sympathise with the slow crumbling on superhuman veneer as well. Colds take longer to shift (even if I, too, avoid them the better part of the time) and things like sleep deprivation get me in ways I never imagined they would. Remember to get better before turning the dial back up to 11!

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    1. Thanks, Kev. Maybe you’re right and I’m just getting old? 😭


      1. Kev Harrison says:

        We’re not getting old! But that spring of youth that facilitated so much of my prior idiocy without consequences flow just that little bit less furiously, nowadays! 😉

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  14. War 13lack 13ro says:

    Wonderful as ALWAYS!!! Hope you get better. As you said don’t be a stranger.. Be a friend as I learned the hardway☺

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  15. I’m very glad you’ve continued on with blogging! Here’s hoping things keep looking up for you. 🙂

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  16. Great post. Get better and keep kicking ass!


    1. Thanks, Joseph. I plan on being around for a while longer.

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  17. John F Leonard says:

    Never sure how you keep going, but don’t stop mate : )

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